Reminding Reminders Remain…

Last week I posted a blog about feeling down and about how I seem to be going through a period of depression. I’ve blogged a bit about it in a couple other posts recently (here, here, and here) and I mentioned it in briefly in an episode of my Podcast. I talked about how I […]

Maybe a “Reminder” is what we really need…

I use to see a counselor on a regular basis. I’ve dealt with depression and anxiety for probably most of my life but, a few years ago things got really bad. I went through some pretty catastrophic life changes and I handled them poorly to say the least, and that’s only if you can say […]

The Process & The Path Podcast Episode 1

A couple days ago I started a Podcast and I just posted Episode 1! I’m excited to share this with you all and I really hope you like it! https://anchor.fm/duanetoops/embed/episodes/1—Lets-Talk-About-Discipline-e2vpjp/a-a92pth Here’s the show notes: Welcome to Episode #1 of this Podcast. Thanks so much for joining me! In this episodeĀ I try to talk about discipline, […]

The Critics Remind Me Why I Do This

  There’s a line close to the beginning of J.R.R. Tolkien’s book The Fellowship of the Ring that reads; “It’s a dangerous business…going out your door”. I think that probably goes double for stepping outside of your virtual doorway. The internet is a treacherous terrain. For all its benefits and advantages, it is a fickle […]

Discipline Doesn’t Have to be a Dirty Word

In this video, I revisit the topic and subject matter from my previous video “A Disciplined Liberation”. In the aftermath of posting that video I had a lot of really interesting conversations about ‘discipline’ and ‘practice’. It made me realize that I didn’t do a very good job of communicating as clearly as I would […]

Books Read 2018

Alright, I’m going to let my nerd flag fly right out the gate. I’m an avid reader. I read a lot, I mean A LOT. That fact, in and of itself, may not sound particularly nerdy but, wait there’s more. Every year I set a reading goal, and throughout the year I track and catalog […]

I didn’t realize ‘Discipline’ was so polarizing

About five days ago I posted a video on my YouTube Channel called “A Disciplined Liberation“. (I’ll embed the video below as well, You’re welcome, lol.) Obviously, the primary subject matter of the video was the idea of ‘discipline’, especially as it relates to Zen practice, meditation, and the concepts of freedom, realization, awakening, and […]

I think I finally figured out how to blog

I’ve had this blog for nine years now…nine…fucking…years…wow! And, in all that time I think I’ve had absolutely no clue what to do with it. This blog has largely been a dumping ground, a digital vomit bucket. At first it was little more than a place to throw random thoughts. Then it became site of […]

Open Your Eyes…

If you’ve been watching any of my videos you know that I’ve been meditating for quite some time, and over the past several months I’ve been studying Zen, and trying to go deeper into Zen practice. But, here lately, I’ve been having a really hard time, I’ve been specifically struggling with my meditation practice. So […]

I Don’t Know…

So I fucked up, and I don’t know what to do…So lets talk about it right now, come on let’s go. So last week I posted a video called “Think Like a Beginner“. In that I tried to talk a little bit about this Zen Buddhist idea called Beginner’s Mind. Well, shortly after I posted […]