Reminding Reminders Remain…

Last week I posted a blog about feeling down and about how I seem to be going through a period of depression. I’ve blogged a bit about it in a couple other posts recently (here, here, and here) and I mentioned it in briefly in an episode of my Podcast. I talked about how I […]

Maybe a “Reminder” is what we really need…

I use to see a counselor on a regular basis. I’ve dealt with depression and anxiety for probably most of my life but, a few years ago things got really bad. I went through some pretty catastrophic life changes and I handled them poorly to say the least, and that’s only if you can say […]

Maybe I failed, maybe I needed to…

There’s a line in a song called “I’m Ready” by a band called Jack’s Mannequin that says “I wake up to find it’s another four aspirin morning and I dive in”. I can’t tell you the last time I actually heard that song but, this morning I could feel it. I felt that song, that […]

Today was a shitty day…

I don’t know what happened. I don’t know what went wrong or where I went wrong. The day felt like shit as soon as it began, maybe even before it began. I got up on the same side of the bed that I always do but, today, before my bare feet even touched the cold […]

The Process & The Path Podcast Episode 1

A couple days ago I started a Podcast and I just posted Episode 1! I’m excited to share this with you all and I really hope you like it! https://anchor.fm/duanetoops/embed/episodes/1—Lets-Talk-About-Discipline-e2vpjp/a-a92pth Here’s the show notes: Welcome to Episode #1 of this Podcast. Thanks so much for joining me! In this episodeĀ I try to talk about discipline, […]

Discipline Doesn’t Have to be a Dirty Word

In this video, I revisit the topic and subject matter from my previous video “A Disciplined Liberation”. In the aftermath of posting that video I had a lot of really interesting conversations about ‘discipline’ and ‘practice’. It made me realize that I didn’t do a very good job of communicating as clearly as I would […]

Books Read 2018

Alright, I’m going to let my nerd flag fly right out the gate. I’m an avid reader. I read a lot, I mean A LOT. That fact, in and of itself, may not sound particularly nerdy but, wait there’s more. Every year I set a reading goal, and throughout the year I track and catalog […]

I didn’t realize ‘Discipline’ was so polarizing

About five days ago I posted a video on my YouTube Channel called “A Disciplined Liberation“. (I’ll embed the video below as well, You’re welcome, lol.) Obviously, the primary subject matter of the video was the idea of ‘discipline’, especially as it relates to Zen practice, meditation, and the concepts of freedom, realization, awakening, and […]

Questioning Religion?

In this video, as a pretty skeptical dude studying Zen, I try to talk about ‘religion’, what it is and what it means. Transcript Below! Enjoy! What is religion? Why do religions exist? What characteristically typifies religion? Every analytical study or examination of religion begins with such questions. Yet, in many ways, such questions implicitly, […]

Zen Teachers?

  So, I’ve been doing a lot thinking about Zen teachers, about what it means to have a teacher, about what a zen teacher even is, and about what it means to be a zen student, especially in our particular, modern, Western context or situation. So, let’s talk about that right now! I guess you […]