New Episode – More About Sadness…

https://anchor.fm/duanetoops/embed/episodes/Episode-6—More-About-Sadness-e3i1o9 Hey friends, I posted a new podcast episode on Monday. If you haven’t had a chance to give it a listen, I would really appreciate it if you did! Really hope you guys like it! Below you’ll find links to all the books and content I referenced, as well as all the gear I […]

Letter to the Young…

                              One day, this world will break you and when it does you will never be ready you will never be mended and you will cease to believe; in life, love, faith, family, god, in everything, although you may never admit […]

Shoegazer

I was going though some of my older photos and I came across this little nugget. I began to recognize a pattern throughout my photographic work. I take quite a number of photos of shoes, either mine or others, and or other objects on the ground. Generally speaking, it seems the implicit intent of my […]

Beggar at the Gates

  I dance with my despair I kiss my suffering mouth to mouth Lips wet with saliva and tears sweat and strain Do not let my stutter depart from me I limp because I have wrestled I have striven with “God” and men and have prevailed Disjointed and crippled, I am whole I am laughing […]

Smokestack

I just recently finished reading a book my therapist ‘prescribed’ to me; Healing Your Emotional Self. I won’t go into too much regarding its content here. I’m planning on writing a post regarding a few thoughts, considerations, and critiques of what I found in the text. Overall, however, I though the book was helpful and informative. As I […]

What to do When Something You Love is Part of the Problem?

The past year and a half of my life has been tumultuous at best. It has been the epitome of what Shakespeare defined as the “winter of our discontent”. It has been a time marked almost exclusively by loss and misfortune. I’ve lost my job,having been laid off twice. I’ve lost my home. I’ve lost […]

A Centerless Mandala…

There is no quiet at my center. There is no calm at my core. There is no peace in my being.  I am inundated by anguish and turmoil. Chaos permeates to the very marrow of my bones and it cannot be silenced… In the tumult of where I am found there is no space, no […]

Melancholy as Mitzvot

Last semester I took a course in Modern & Contemporary Judaism. I found it to be intriguing and enlightening. As someone who has devoted a considerable amount of my own personal studies to understanding the specificity of  the Jewish faith, I relished the opportunity to engage with it in an academic format. Below you’ll find a short […]