New Episode Coming Today!

Hey Friends! I’m sorry I’ve been rather neglectful of this page recently. That is a flaw I intend to do my best to remedy. If the title of this post didn’t give it away already, I’m dropping a New Episode of the Podcast today at 3pm EST. I’d love it if you gave it a […]

Maybe I failed, maybe I needed to…

There’s a line in a song called “I’m Ready” by a band called Jack’s Mannequin that says “I wake up to find it’s another four aspirin morning and I dive in”. I can’t tell you the last time I actually heard that song but, this morning I could feel it. I felt that song, that […]

Today was a shitty day…

I don’t know what happened. I don’t know what went wrong or where I went wrong. The day felt like shit as soon as it began, maybe even before it began. I got up on the same side of the bed that I always do but, today, before my bare feet even touched the cold […]

The Process & The Path Podcast Episode 1

A couple days ago I started a Podcast and I just posted Episode 1! I’m excited to share this with you all and I really hope you like it! https://anchor.fm/duanetoops/embed/episodes/1—Lets-Talk-About-Discipline-e2vpjp/a-a92pth Here’s the show notes: Welcome to Episode #1 of this Podcast. Thanks so much for joining me! In this episodeĀ I try to talk about discipline, […]

The Critics Remind Me Why I Do This

  There’s a line close to the beginning of J.R.R. Tolkien’s book The Fellowship of the Ring that reads; “It’s a dangerous business…going out your door”. I think that probably goes double for stepping outside of your virtual doorway. The internet is a treacherous terrain. For all its benefits and advantages, it is a fickle […]

Discipline Doesn’t Have to be a Dirty Word

In this video, I revisit the topic and subject matter from my previous video “A Disciplined Liberation”. In the aftermath of posting that video I had a lot of really interesting conversations about ‘discipline’ and ‘practice’. It made me realize that I didn’t do a very good job of communicating as clearly as I would […]

I didn’t realize ‘Discipline’ was so polarizing

About five days ago I posted a video on my YouTube Channel called “A Disciplined Liberation“. (I’ll embed the video below as well, You’re welcome, lol.) Obviously, the primary subject matter of the video was the idea of ‘discipline’, especially as it relates to Zen practice, meditation, and the concepts of freedom, realization, awakening, and […]

I think I finally figured out how to blog

I’ve had this blog for nine years now…nine…fucking…years…wow! And, in all that time I think I’ve had absolutely no clue what to do with it. This blog has largely been a dumping ground, a digital vomit bucket. At first it was little more than a place to throw random thoughts. Then it became site of […]

Open Your Eyes…

If you’ve been watching any of my videos you know that I’ve been meditating for quite some time, and over the past several months I’ve been studying Zen, and trying to go deeper into Zen practice. But, here lately, I’ve been having a really hard time, I’ve been specifically struggling with my meditation practice. So […]

Think like a beginner…

In this video we talk about an Essay in the book “Manage Your Day-To-Day” by Steven Pressfield, an interview with Ian Leslie, and the Zen Buddhist idea of Beginner’s mind. Rough transcript below. Enjoy! Hey I’m glad you’re here. One of the books I just finished reading is a book called Manage Your Day-To-Day. As […]