Today was a shitty day…

I don’t know what happened. I don’t know what went wrong or where I went wrong. The day felt like shit as soon as it began, maybe even before it began. I got up on the same side of the bed that I always do but, today, before my bare feet even touched the cold […]

The Critics Remind Me Why I Do This

  There’s a line close to the beginning of J.R.R. Tolkien’s book The Fellowship of the Ring that reads; “It’s a dangerous business…going out your door”. I think that probably goes double for stepping outside of your virtual doorway. The internet is a treacherous terrain. For all its benefits and advantages, it is a fickle […]

Discipline Doesn’t Have to be a Dirty Word

In this video, I revisit the topic and subject matter from my previous video “A Disciplined Liberation”. In the aftermath of posting that video I had a lot of really interesting conversations about ‘discipline’ and ‘practice’. It made me realize that I didn’t do a very good job of communicating as clearly as I would […]

I didn’t realize ‘Discipline’ was so polarizing

About five days ago I posted a video on my YouTube Channel called “A Disciplined Liberation“. (I’ll embed the video below as well, You’re welcome, lol.) Obviously, the primary subject matter of the video was the idea of ‘discipline’, especially as it relates to Zen practice, meditation, and the concepts of freedom, realization, awakening, and […]

I think I finally figured out how to blog

I’ve had this blog for nine years now…nine…fucking…years…wow! And, in all that time I think I’ve had absolutely no clue what to do with it. This blog has largely been a dumping ground, a digital vomit bucket. At first it was little more than a place to throw random thoughts. Then it became site of […]

Open Your Eyes…

If you’ve been watching any of my videos you know that I’ve been meditating for quite some time, and over the past several months I’ve been studying Zen, and trying to go deeper into Zen practice. But, here lately, I’ve been having a really hard time, I’ve been specifically struggling with my meditation practice. So […]

Think like a beginner…

In this video we talk about an Essay in the book “Manage Your Day-To-Day” by Steven Pressfield, an interview with Ian Leslie, and the Zen Buddhist idea of Beginner’s mind. Rough transcript below. Enjoy! Hey I’m glad you’re here. One of the books I just finished reading is a book called Manage Your Day-To-Day. As […]

Questioning Religion?

In this video, as a pretty skeptical dude studying Zen, I try to talk about ‘religion’, what it is and what it means. Transcript Below! Enjoy! What is religion? Why do religions exist? What characteristically typifies religion? Every analytical study or examination of religion begins with such questions. Yet, in many ways, such questions implicitly, […]

Authority?

Hey I’m glad you’re here. So, last week I posted a video called “Tradition?“. In that video we tried to talk a little bit about what it means to be faithful to tradition, what it means to honor tradition, and what it means to betray tradition or to rebel against tradition. We talked about how […]

Tradition?

Hey, I’m glad you’re here. So as I continue delve deeper into learning about Buddhism and the Zen tradition, I’ve found myself thinking more and more about ‘tradition’ – what it means to be faithful to tradition and what it means to betray tradition, what it means to be aligned with tradition and what it […]